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Happy New Year's Eve everyone!
today's gonna be a good day!
gonna celebrate the new yr 2004 with a bang at sean's place! red wine anyone?? hee.
oh yea, went for sam fern's house for dinner yesterday! her mom's a great cook btw.. you couldnt get enough of the nasi lemak and devil's curry! -lick lips-
and thanx sam once again for the present! i'm going to be super sparkly from now on! :P

well, i'm stuck at home now, rotting away.. desperately wanting to catch LOTR with no success, cos everyone else seems to have watched it long ago... (while i was enjoying in rome) gee, talk about opportunity cost man. gotta catch School Of Rock as well man! hm, what's in for Scary Movie 3, really?

ok, so i said i'd be uploading rome pics.. but the stupid msn jus hasnt enough space for thee precioussssss pics.. and i've failed to post up the grad night photos.. oh no, i'm such a nut at the com.. maybe i should try yahoo..

oh well, i applied for a job yesterday. (finally) hope they call me asap and employ me! >_< otherwise i'm back to square one.. talking about jobs, i ever wondered about getting one at a club.. it'll be fun! except it means late nights, and parents' disapproval i guess.. haha. they're not that enthu about me clubbing anyway.. and talking about clubbing.. monday night was a rrrreal party! lotsa j1s i suppose, but who cares when there's great music? as usual it's at chinablack.. this time much better than the last.. this is probably one of the last few parties i'm attending.. that is if i get the job.. sob. kinda sad eh? haha. the funniest thing was, i managed to stay awake, cos ltc happened to end that evening at 5plus.. it's a wonder i could climb out of bed and into chiong-ing stuff.. lol.

speaking of ltc, it's been a wonderful experience. no doubt we were sleepy-eyed half the time through the intensive sessions, nevertheless events of the camp were deeply etched into our minds. the sessions we had: history of the church, aims of cyf, planning skills, presentation skills, calling "lester's dad", having our meals together (popiah!), p&w, POW, operations COJO and JOCO (haha), the knock-it-downs.. i'm sure the team has gotten to know each other relatively better, but we still need lotsa work on that.. last but not least, great big thanx to everyone on the team: sean (BOSS), isabelle (though absent but i'm sure she was spiritually with us!), seb, darren, shawn, kel, sam, kirstin, elsa, joachim and ethelbert, and the advisors and leaders: tee, les, cally, colin, g-bear, jon, lai, and uncle david who came to visit us.. thanx for all the guidance, the lessons, advice, and inspiration.. i'm sure the core team 2004 will make it through all of your help!

a personal thought.. stepping up already takes a lot of guts, but loving the members takes even more. it's definitely not easy.. u gotta put in effort to love every single one of them, even if your opinion of any of them could change for the worse throughout the yr, even if you are afraid of the person.. selflessness, that's what it is. would i be able to achieve even a little of that? setting a good example to the members? consistently throughout the yr? i know everything will fall into place as long as i put God first, but we always have worries since we're not perfect. leadership is actually quite stressful when it comes to serving. as it is said, the first will be the last.. just as jesus stooped down to wash his disciples feet, we have to humbly serve our members.. well, in the first place, leadership was never about who did what better and who was always the first.. as long as whatever we do, we do with God in our heart and with love and sincerity.. that's the most important. and another thing is to be true to ourselves. that means a lot as well.. well, that's how i feel at least. since i've not done much reflections before and after ltc, it's about time i did it.. so.. yup.

ok, gotta end off.. lunch is here!

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hey all!!!!!! i'm back from ROME!!!!! no simple words can describe my trip i tell u.. it's great, wonderful, fulfilling, fun, amazing, breath-taking... and these still dont do Rome any justice! lester, sherwin, gilbert, kelvin, josephine and i spent a good one week in rome, and Assisi on the last night... i really dunno what to say! i snapped tons of pictures, and mine wasnt even the most... not pro pics, but i'll try to upload them all the same (dont worry, this time my com is not gonna screw up and kill the pics, and plus g-bear has kindly burnt them into a cd so they're safe!) whee! we visited the main basiilicas such as St Peter's, St Paul's, St John's, etc. the Pantheon, the Vatican Museum, and so on. will name them as i upload the pics k? cos it's getting damn late and i've ltc later in the morn... eeks.

just to let everyone dear know i'm back home safely! the plane trip back home was in fact quite uncomfortable, and the food not as delectable, but nonetheless, it didnt make the trip any less fun! (provided i bought a bottle of duty-free baileys at the airport! :P) btw it was a 9hr ++ flight from rome to bangkok, then another 2hr ++ back to singapore.. phew-whee. i'm glad the flights are over. aww man, i miss Rome... (i've promised myself i'll go back again sometime, probably with family) there's just to much to tell! anyone interested to see the pics asap can come over to my place or something! i did quite a few videos on my cam too :) (should have done more actually)

one more thing. to everyone, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! some people would've gotten the cards late cos i wrote them in rome and i just sent them tonight.. haha. i'm so sorry about that. anyway, christmas somehow felt a little different this yr.. maybe a little quieter?? maybe it was because i was damn jet-lagged that i couldnt sense the christmas spirit? (well, i came back from the airport, unpacked, then met steph in town) ended kinda sleepy-headed.. but managed to pull through midnight mass.. cheers to Christus Laudatur Voce Choir for their well done pageant! except for the batteries that went dead half way through mona's song!! lol. the dancers were great too, though kinda stiff (definitely from the nerves yea) gave out presents after mass.. (did the last min shopping after i came back.. eeps) i'll have to try to do something for everyone next yr man, feel bad about missing out quite a lot of people for the presents.. >_< oh yea, it was sam koh's house this yr again for christmas! it's a cyf tradition for a member to open up his or her house for all the peeps to go and celebrate, eat, etc, and stay over.. if they want to. it was good cos sam's place, which is at Riverwalk apartments, has a open floor area at the 5th storey, where there's a pool, pavilion, bbq area and tennis area! big space for us to wander around.. it was fun, though once again kinda quiet, not too much people.. when i reached there i regretted wearing my thin and sleeveless top.. the wind was so strong! luckily greg lent me his jacket.. and i dozed off while listening to colin's lame jokes 2003.. haha. remind me to tell them next time!

ok, that's about it for christmas night.. gotta catch some sleep now before i oversleep for 6.30am mass later! >_< ciao!

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OH-MY-GAWD.
u can never imagine how it feels like to be in the indoor stadium, sitting in with a million other fans, lights all on, anxiously waiting for THE MAN to appear. and u can never imagine, going for a concert without buying the light sticks?!?! that's what mimi and i did. -_-" we were squirming about in the east wing, middle row at the side, at 8.25pm (concert supposedly starts at 8). Then it came. HE came. the scene was just absolutely spectacular, light sticks (of all sorts: standard ones, starwars light sabre lookalike ones, those with spinning lights... u name it, the fans have it) waving wildly welcoming THE MAN himself: DAVID TAO!!!!!!!!!!!!! his voice was just so lovely, so mesmerising.. rising above the high-pitched screams and the thunderous applause... and he looked soooooooo goooooooood. absolutely stunning. when he appeared, mimi and i went crazy. at that point in time, we badly wanted to join those fans in the front seats. argh. we couldnt reach him unless our arms were 30-50m long.. he rocked the stage man, from his lovely ballads to rock hits.. he did it. (it was a pity he didnt go topless, haha) great band, great music, great voice, great TAO ZHE. even his fans from other parts of the world flocked in to watch him! china, HK, japan, england, australia, malaysia... he even managed to spot one fan who went for every single one of his concert.. that is a true blue david tao fan! -sigh- wish we all had that money to tour with him around the world man.. oh yea, of cos we knew who the guest singers were: TENSION! mimi screamed for Raymond while i screamed for John, haha. felt like i was about 5 years younger. anyway, the way the fans screamed "encore" and stomped the indoor, while chanting "DAVID, DAVID, DAVID, DAVID.." was just too cool for words. of cos he had to turn up again! he sang the last few songs, which kept us up and singing along... phweeeet. we so didnt wanna leave. hence, when the concert ended at about 11pm, we reluctantly left (to catch the last buses obviously :P) about two and a half hours of pure blissssss. how about that man. we were super pathetic though. the perhaps once in a lifetime david tao concert we attended and we DIDNT bring a cam. how could we have forgotten?!?!?!?! wonder if we could contact any david tao fans and ask them for some photos.. haha. that would be superb man. maybe that's a sign for mimi and i to go for his other concerts.. he did say "see you next year!", didnt he? :)

the only sad thing was i killed my throat while screaming for David Tao.. suspected myself to have contracted tonsilitis (is it spelled this way?) since sat night, so my throat hurts like hell now. going to see the doc soon. verrrrry soon. argh. there goes all the fried and spicy food... hope my throat recovers before departure for rome.

which reminds me to countdown: 6 more days to rome!!! whee! gotta go to novena on sat for confession before i leave, since it's a pilgrimage, and it's Advent now. preparation for Christmas! i havent bought any prezzies yet, though the christmas tree is up.. it looks like there's something missing though. -shrug-

oh yea, yesterday was leader's prep meeting as well. it went well, and i've decided to step up. no more indecisiveness and worries. i'm praying for more potential CYF leaders to step up as well. it's true about what the advisors shared yesterday. (hey les, what u said about tee's words stuck to me as well :) ) as long as u love responsibly, u are up to serve. i always have worries about not setting a good example (does that mean clubbing is out? O_o) and not reaching out to members, but since les used to have that problem as well, and if he can overcome it, why cant i yea? -determined- it's a good opportunity to contribute to the church community again.. since i only stepped up for a few months during sec4..

quite nervous for this fri's AGM actually.

ok, gtg for breakfast then to the doc.. tralalala... (euphoria from yesterday's concert still not washed away)

prom's night's over.
and i dunno wad to say about it...
just happy and awkward times. haha. lotsa photo-taking, smiles, food, laughters, weird and quite irritating sound effects, and over-reaction.. hmmm..
wished i had dressed up more actually.. haha. until now i'm stil kinda thinking about that warehouse dress.. hahaha.
damn.
and probably the whole of A51 knows i took photos with him. hahaha. (glares at jason)
well, what's done cannot be undone.
and the clubbing after that made up for some of the discomfort.

SOS..... not a bad place on a weekday? super empty i can say.. it was more of a cj-sa night.. didnt have as many drinks as i had imagined, and danced like nobody's business.. blissss. after a long absence of clubbing, i guess my alcohol tolerance has fallen. but i still love lychee martini though!

we walked all the way to lau pa sat after that, legs aching by then. i ate like nobody's business, and ended up looking 3-4 months pregnant.. argh. food's always a sin. back at the hotel, carmy, zai, eugene, andrea, jason, and i (with hazel in MIA mode, cher sleeping and angie watching) were playing the game similar to that of prom night, except we didnt have peanut butter, soy milk, pineapples, coke, or potato chips.. just a bottle of vodka. haha. i think andrea and jason drank most of it... pwheeet. i didnt wanna drink.. not really me yea? lol. i'm known for relatively high alcohol tolerance actually.'. annie's become a good gurl! hohoho.. not to mention carmy and zai got high after the vodka.. haha. they were giggling like mad...

anyway, we didnt fall asleep till around 7am.. then my hp rang non-stop with the sms ringtone.. hahaha. now u know samsung phones can be damn irritating ;P (out of point but i'm fascinated with the new samsung E700!!!!!)

now, i'm just spending my entire week and the next reading all the library books my hands can get hold of!! jill mansell, jane green, sophie kinsella, olivia goldsmith, bring it on! haha. fiction-deprived for the past year i guess? i'm addicted to the books.. finished 3 out of 4 in just 2 days.. gosh. is there such a thing as craving for books? but fiction of cos..

hm. away from books. countdown: 8 more days to departure for rome! whee! and i just remembered david tao's concert is just tomorrow!! eeeeowwww! geez, i almost forgot about it >_<

oh ya, cant wait to see steph next sun! er although it's the day of departure but i'm only leaving at night. so gonna spend the day with her before i leave! yays! -jumps- ^_^ havent seen her for months... i miss her sooo much...

really, tis the season to be jolly! :P

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oh my gawd. i just wanna thank angie and cher so much!! i love u 2!! and dith!!! i'd love to shower a million kisses on u!! thank you all so much for coming down yesterday night... u've all melted my heart..... :)

btw, i thought yesterday night was great, with the skits and all! didn't had such a great laugh in a while.. though the band was not perfect and all, but i thought we were pretty good! credit goes to the whole band: judette, joachim, jem, sean, g-bear, sebastian and sam! whee! it was quite a pity the crowd wasn't hyped up.. or we could've gone even more wild.. just nerves i guess.. haha. esp that this IS the first time i'm singing in a band.. look forward to more of these!

oh yea, there was just so much fooooood... yummylicious. not to mention that after clearing up, some of us headed down to Lor 5 to finish up some of the leftovers!!!! geez. only after i rubbed my bulging belly did i realise prom night's only 3 days away... DARN. hope i can still fit into the dress >_< well, walked home with jem after that, but it didn't help much at digesting the food.. haha. it was a good half hour walk nonetheless..


um, went for interview today... it's that valuair co.. and they were only looking for FLIGHT ATTENDANTS today. geez. sorry, i fulfil height requirement but not the SIZE requirement.. if i did, i sure would've gone for it! haha. ended up signing a job form at starbucks.. hope they need me there soon! haha. hols without work sure is torturing.. with all the events coming up that sure burns holes in pockets. anyway, went over to jem's place to chill for a while, then they (namely sam, gerald, sebastian and jem of cos) hopped over to my place (fyi jem lives opp my blk).. chips, pepsi twist and bluff. nice combi eh... haha. they left about an hour ago.. well. it's always nice to have some friends over to chill sometime! :)

yays. if i'm not working, heck. shall enjoy myself on tue at sentosa... again. this time with cyf! it's gonna be fun, but not like what jem said: tan from 10 to 11-ish, makan till 4, then start tanning again till 6. cos i said the best time to tan is about 9-10-ish am and 4-6 pm. gee. we'll skip the makan till 4 part yea.. haha. wonder where the vball part fits in.. hmm.. i should just stay in the shade and read some book... absolute blisssssss.

well, just hope i don't get too tan that my mom faints at the sight of me.. haha. she likes me to have a fair complexion, the fairer the better.. weird. i always liked to have a little tan, seems healthier that way.. well, gotta trim off that bulge before tue! arg!

oh no, that means not too much drinks on mon night.. beer belly.. eeeeeee. haha.

wheee... 29th nov... it's DEE day! going down to church for last prep at 4... and i think i'm supposed to go to NTUC to buy the pasta ingredients and stuff. but heck. i need to enjoy my morning! ^_^
was kinda worried when the alarm woke me up cos my throat felt kinda dry. *panic* if i get a sore throat today, i'm soooo gonna DIE. >_<

hmph. remember the job interview? arghhhhh! the guy who told me to turn off yesterday was actually absent. darn. i'm supposed to be pissed off, but what can i do, i'm the interviewee... then my mom made some sickening remarks which were so not encouraging. some parents always have SOME things to say in EVERYTHING. hm. and my mood was half-spoilt THIS MORNING about dad tryin to pull me down for some other job interview. it's not that i don't wanna go today, i'm not free at all! and tomorrow.. if i finish mass at 12.. the interview stops at 4.. and it's a walk-in.. i most probably won't get the chance.. geez. and my mom had to dig out all those "my friend's daughter could find such a good-paying job" kinda shit. oh fuck off. this shit really pisses me off like hell. i'd like to find my job in peace THANKYOU. stop saying that u gave me pocket money for nothing this past 12yrs. it's YOUR responsibility to take care of your children dammit. don't u ever dare push the blame on us. if u want me to contribute to this family, tell me nicely. don't use those sarcastic and condescending-i-gotta-put-u-down remarks. and i'm entitled to use my pocket money in any way i want, u have the authority to restrict the amount but you don't have the authority to restrict what i spend on u $#@%(*&^$#$@!. nothing good happens when i tell my parents something. i regret telling them i was going to look for a job. *curses myself*

see, my day was supposed to start off well, but look at it. just look at it. it's super sad. and that !$#^*$#% can go on about that stupid topic for at least a day, raking up the issue every few minutes. my ears are beginnning to rot from being exposed to those explicit words. now, how am i gonna have a peace of mind tonight?!

just as i thought things were starting to look better, they didn't. this month is really not the month for me. this is getting me pessimistic about the Rome trip. i'm sure some people will somehow spoil the last few days before i go off. shit. i don't wanna continue that thought.

well, enough of complaints. i originally intended for this entry to be a happy one, but bad stuff can never be ignored. i'm wondering when i can go shopping again! really need to buy lotsa stuff before going off.. and i'm still waiting for the assist manager to call me.. things not looking very good now. no job, no money, cant buy stuff. mom sux, cant buy stuff. eventually, cant buy stuff. sorry people, no christmas presents then. haha. i'll work out a way. i'll just go rob a bank or something.. -_-

tis the season to be (not) jolly.. falalalala la la la laaaaaaaaaa....

mmmm... the joy of waking up late and knowing that you don't have school.. haha
here i am, having my brunch while whacking the keyboard...
nice days could go on forever... BUT, i have a job interview afterwards..
it's not that i dread the interview, it's just that i havent had proper sleep for the past few days.
AND i'm genuinely excited about the interview *prays hard* i really hope i'll get the job..

well, besides the job interview, tomorrow's CYF Night!!!! woohoo! we're gonna rock the stage man. luckily with God's help, the band has managed to finish our pract, or rather, scrape through. so far, i've only attended.. 4 practices.. haha. nonetheless it's gonna be great! ^_^

time's passing real fast suddenly, next week's prom night already! gee, so many events, so little money on me.. whoa, i dunno if i can survive this.. plus, i've been persuaded to go for 1st dec's Chinablack.. argh. money no enough man.. then there's David Teo's concert on 7th dec!! it's finally coming.. after that it's beautiful Rome.. ahhhhhhh.....

events-packed 2 weeks.. and after i return from Rome, christmas eve! i wonder if i'll have enough sleep.. haha. there seems to be hardly any time to get presents and cards! oh well, tis the season to be jolly, falalalala la la la la...

oh ya! did i mention! an hons, yans, mimi and i went shopping yesterday.. whee.. i bought my christmas top.. haha. love it to the core. still wondering about the christmasey top though! hmmmm.. to buy or not to buy... that is the question. oh yea, sammy (an's husband!) came afterwards! hahaha.. yans, mimi and i had a super fun time teasing em.. wheeheehee.. couldn't help it la hons, too bad u 2 weren't wearing shirts of the same colour.. or else! it would've been worse. HAHAHAHA. :P

nothing's gonna put me down cos.. tis the season to be jolly, falalalala la la la la...

oh my gawd!!!!! i'm back!!!! actually i did blog at Pacific Coffee on thur but the stupid com cut me off.. darn. but anyway! my com's finally discharged! for those who didn't know, my com CRRRRRRRRASHED. so there. argh. the torture of those few days without it..

ahhh.. finally, the A's are over, shopping season begins! except that i'm broke. haha. spent most of my savings on the rome trip.. so now i'm racking my brains on how to get my christmas stuff before departing for rome..

it's so exciting now that everything good is nearing! ^_^

oh yea, went to SOS on fri. alright man! thoroughly enjoyed myself! cant wait for 8th dec.. Chinablack! whee! one last party before going to rome.. haha. i seem to be mentioning rome everywhere. what can i do? i AM going there!!!!! :P

oops, almost forgot. i gotta go town now! (equals to cant wait to blog again ;) )

argh! i can't resist the temptation to blog! happened to peek at the pc while on the way back to my room.. hiak hiak hiak.. the seat's empty!! haha. the reason being, my dad's taken a whole week off from work(great, just when my exams are packed into this whole week), and my bro's enjoying his school holidays right now.. argh. that equals to both of them taking turns to HOG the com.. -_-

yays, i gotta make my online time worthwhile then! but what else can i talk about besides exams? and mugging? hm, supposed to be biah-ing my econs mcq right now, but heck. oh btw, had a wonderful lunch with dith after math paper2 today! whee.. there was lots of food.. palatable except for the super-crunchy-more-like-rock-hard-rather bread sticks.. and lots of conversation! fyi, we were at pizza hut, enjoying the cheap lunch express set, but not so for the atmosphere.. quiet (empty), hawker-centre-like except for the aircon, and chinese auntie waitress.. GEE. dith and i were like ordering our food in chinese. weird thing to do at a place like pizza hut? that's ok, cos all the talking made up for the lack of ambience.. heh. i haven't had such a long chat with someone for a very long time! thanx dith for the company! *muacks* i'm actually a very chatty person, just that somehow during the transition into jc, i 've quietened a little.. i remember hogging the phone during sec school days.. haha. or maybe it's just dith that makes me feel like talking! :)

btw! did i say i got the lame genes from my parents? just yesterday, my dad was looking for his glasses. he was asking mom, guess what she said?! (there was newsweek lying on the nearby table with mahathir in specs on the cover) "theeere! your glasses are with mahathir!"... *rolls on floor laughing* geez, come to think of it, mahathir's glasses do look like my dad's.. hahaha. so LAME! seriously, there couldn't have been a better answer than that!

hai, 3 days into A's.. 8 more days till it's over! way to go.. but dreading human geog.. eeeee.

ok, back to econs! (and Holland V later! tonight's episode's is a must-watch!)

time for my once-in-a-blue-moon shoutout!!
Happy Belated Halloween everyone! haha.. as if we celebrated it..
hm, i'm wondering why i'm still feeling so energetic.. while most people are blue, and super stressed? *touches own forehead* i think i have a 100degrees fever..

well, i was trying very hard to get some econs into my head yesterday, when i suddenly had this thought of stacking all my notes away and sending them to Antarctica.. or any deserted island in the world.. i dunno why, but i just felt i wasn't a book-ish person at all.. all this while i've been numbed by tons of books, lectures and tutorials.. none of which i'd been interested in. if my parents chucked me at a bakery and made me work there i'd gladly do it! it's really just not me to be buried in books all the time.. yea, true that i managed to survive primary and secondary school, but the purpose was not for myself.. all i wanted was to please my parents.. however, i cantback out now, not when i'm already near the end..

Holy Waterrrrrrr... i need holy water! to calm my nerves! the concealed anxiety i have inside of me which refuses to fade off, which shall choose to erupt on the very day of my exams!!! i suppose this is an after-effect of going to Novena with Jason and Na, especially when my bottle of holy water has been exhausted.. need.. to.. go.. this.. saaaat...

on a happier note! my flights to and from Rome has been confirmed!!! yipeee!!! we'll be leaving s'pore on 14th dec at 8.55pm.. and returning on 24th dec (christmas eve!) morning 11.15am!! whee!! i've never been so excited i tell you.. i think it's prolly enough to offset my anxiety for A's? anyone gonna miss me? haha.. prolly all partying while i'm gone.. gone to see (i hope) THE POPE!! how's that mannnn!!! another good news is, we have to transfer flights at bangkok! wow! know what that means? SHOPPING! haha.. fatal addiction.. *rubs hands* i hope 14th dec comes real soon!

furthermore! i'll be going for David Tao's concert on 7th dec!! that's like double blisssss.... i can imagine myself at the indoor stadium already! aaahhhh! *grabs mimi and screams* we're going! we're really going! ^_^ hm, weird that the ad for his concert only came out recently.. mimi's dad had booked our tix quite long ago, and sad to say, we're quite the slowcoaches.. most of the good seats have been taken already..

i guess i should be rejoicing.. there's just so much to look forward to after the A's! not to mention clubbing as well.. heh. first party of the month shall be on 21st nov at chinablack, proceeds are supposedly going to go to some vietnamese children fund.. my friends suspect it's a scam, but what the heck? i'm there to enjoy myself anyway.. :P

*skipping around the room* i must work.. last week to mug! hm, word of the week? consistency! including fervent prayers! i musnt let my parents down..

i'm so sorry for the error display of photos! but i think i'll only try to put them up after A's.. no time to get them up now.. but yea, like everyone's so excited and looking forward to A's.. including me! ain't we?? so that after A's we can go CLUBBING!!! hahahaha.. :P

clubbing and me... i'm definitely going crazy.. crazy from.. not studying enough.. crazy from.. sleeping too much.. arghhhh. u know what i mean, i know i have to help myself but my limbs and my brain just won't listen to me! *screams at brain, then at limbs* my fingers are only good at typing on my blog, not for grabbing a pen and scribbling pages and pages of essay outlines, data reps, math sums and gp compres.. hmph. useless limbs i say. do your work i say!

away from my useless limbs.. i think my mom's experiencing MENOPAUSE.
i told her that all women will experience menopause at one point in their life and you know what? she screamed at me! atrocious behaviour! i was being nice and all, trying to tell her that menopause does not equal end of the world and that it isn't all that bad, and that one day i'll be experiencing menopause too (not that i don't right now) at some point of my life.. blah the blah the blah.. and she told me to shut up and forbid me to say the word MENOPAUSE. wtf? then i gave up and yelled at her for being childish.. it's no use telling her nicely.. she only listens when i yell.. sucks. therefore, if i cant say it in front of her face, i say it here.. menopause, menopause, menopause, menopause, menopause!!!!! super annoying mom i tell you..

oh, and more annoying stuff. ok, maybe not that annoying, but ya. this is definitely not the first time this is happening to me. i hang out with a friend, gotta face her extreme mood swings and get insulted (because she didn't bother about my feelings). i mean, what's wrong? you gave an unpleasant comment, fine i take it. later on, you start sulking and that makes me wonder if i'm that bad a person to hang out with. you were fine one moment and totally @!$%&^@!# the other.. i really cant keep up with your mood swings. i'm always glad to hang out with you but if you're sick of going out with me just tell me, i'll accept that. don't leave me hanging there wondering if the reason was me or pms please, thankyou very much.

hm that felt better. the blog is always a good place to just bleurgh out all that bad stuff bottled up inside..

btw! i miraculously did a gp compre today! whee! congratulate me cos i'm a frequent gp ponner and i hardly hand in work.. blargh. and i ran today! yipee! along with an hons and jason to labrador park.. jason runs fast man. couldnt possibly have caught up with him at all.. the park was cool and breezy, really good place to jog. the total distance is less than 2.4 but it felt more tiring than on the track.. for me that is.. maybe i'm just used to the Sunday jogs with Shamu :) jogging this sunday with her as usual.. love you lots mu! celebrate our.. almost 18 years of friendship! haha.. well, we were neighbours since we were born, and we've been together since! (not that kind of together la!!) oh.. i just realised we haven't taken any recent photos of 2 of us.. eeks. we should have an ij gathering sometime after A's and take tons of photos!!! and makan!!! haha.. i'm always thinking about food.. hm.. Fish and Co! (i like the service at Novena Square's man) or Swensons! er, just not sakae sushi.. haha.

oh speaking of Fish and Co, i had a family dinner there recently, and i have to admit i'm a suaku cos it was our first time there.. -_- the food was so good! but that's not the point. our food was brought by this indian guy, whose service is good, but we dont know his name. when it came to settling the bill, my dad actually blurted out some tamil name, govindasamy or something!! my god! it was so embarrassing! then he went on rambling all those possible tamil names he could call the guy in order to get his attention. goodness. i wish i could've hidden under the table.. i cant recall the names, but boy, they were hilarious. no offence to our fellow indians, but the thought of my dad calling him all those names only made me wanna roll on the floor.. the joys of eating with my dad.. heh.

ok, it's over 12. Happy Deepavali everyone! especially to all the indian families out there.. hm. public hol is never enjoyable when exams are approaching. darn. oops, my bro's waiting for the com.. gotta gooooooooo....

with pretty cher!


with de.ass... haha


with my eldest daughter! germie so cute!


with jason!


with jervie my grandson!


with mimi!!


mr wee!! my bro says he looks cute.. haha.


we look super enthu dont we? my dearest sharn sharn!


with shell! now where's rrrrrrritchie..haha


with sze wenn! pretty girl man..


whee! with my youngest daughter zai!!


alrite.. my dar with karen! yans this is for u!

my dar!


Our Couple Of The Year


my girlfriend! (also angie's wife..haha)


my wife.. at the door?!


honz and bunz.. heh

ahem.. as much as i dont wanna put this up.. i have to.. just look at the pic with me covered k?


we're the background for THE couple..


er.. we were just bo liao? but i llllllllike itttttt... haha

i gtg for choir.. but the farewell assembly pics will be up soon! :)

haha.. took photos of my bro the night before farewell assembly.. cute yea? he's 15 already..
well.. at the beginning of this year, my relationship with my bro wasnt that good.. we were often squabbling.. but now, i'm glad the 2 of us are on good terms! oh, brotherly and sisterly love is wonderful.. heh.

wheeeeee! i missed blogging so much..
fyi, i'm supposed to be in church for pract now, but i decided i'll skip it and go for mass only.. :P
btw! had a great time with jem and greg yesterday at Sakae sushi (Toa Payoh)!! so stuffed after the buffet.. felt like throwing up all the food but nah.. i'm not bulimic. guess i gotta run like 2.4km x2?! it feels worse than a beer belly.. >_<

to walk off calories, i decided to head down to orchard.. was supposed to buy Jobeth's birthday present anyway (her birthday's tomorrow).. so yup. outcome of the walk: shopped for jobeth's prezzie AND for myself.. haha. it's so me ya! :P bought this pair of really cool and cute shoes which, excuse me, happens to be the last pair. lol. 1. it means it's damn hot-selling so i made the right choice. 2. it means that half the island will be spotted with those shoes and i wouldnt wanna be wearing them on the same day as someone(s) else! darn, but heck. i love it! oh darn again, that means i cant shop anymore on Sunday.. ugh. never mind, i'll just contend with window-shopping!

is it the after-effects of sushi-eating that makes me feel hungry? haii.. i knew it was a mistake to go for the buffet, but shouldnt one indulge once in a little while? i should be glad for my anti-snacks kitchen cupboards shouldnt i?

talking about food, Sharn Sharn is coming to my house next tuesday for lunch!! *super excited* the menu is already out, but i'm not telling, cos my sista only knows i'm cooking pasta.. heh. dear sista, dont worry, the food is definitely edible and it's gonna taste great k? just remember to bring yourself with an empty stomach.. hee.

oh man.. i tell you.. my dad is L.A.M.E. he just showed me a picture of a pig with only 2 legs, which is in fact the picture of a whole pig folded where the legs are.. looks real actually, but.. LAME!

so.. should i say, like father like daughter?? haha. not really, i think i'm worse. my idol is probably angie's mom! right angie? or is it your dad? O_o? follow in the example of lame-ness..

oh no.. i forgot to put up farewell assembly photos.. hm, that reminds me. averted a disaster that day by scooting off.. that day was real hilarious.. besides angie and i having to take photos with sammy (btw i insist that i'm a third and innocent party, angie and sammy are happily married), there were happy (or rather forced) photos of sharn and peter! and my dar yans and her beloved Mr Potato.. in bliss man those 2.. they are absolutely compatible! oh yea, i thought mr G was quite happy with his G-strings.. lol. will never forget that day.

before i forget, cher, i finally read the blog, but not quite like what you described. haha. relatively interesting, and quite surprised by some stuff.. but that's about it.. time to start a new life, one of new hopes and dreams.

*cough* i'm not supposed to be here, but i couldnt resist the temptation..
i'm having a real bad sore throat now, but it was worse yesterday.. i couldnt even speak without hurting my throat.. dear sharn, it's not your fault.. i guess it's just that my antibodies were not working well.. heh. i guess everyone's studying so hard we've neglected our health..

i feel like an idiot though, after i've decided i'm going for choir pract regardless of A's being round the corner, i get sick. grrrreat.

btw, is it really necessary to let him know how i feel about him since it is the end of school? actually i'd rather he mistake someone else for me.. i dunno what i'm afraid of, just that right now, i dont want him to know. then again, do i have a choice? he already knows. ahh, the complexity of my situation. call me a coward, or avoiding the situation or whatever, but i'm gonna run away.

btw, js, if u stop bugging us non-stop to go k-box, we might go k? seriously, the more i hear about it, the less keen i am to go. fullstop.

i wont forget what mr wee said: i'm not giving up on you, so dont you give up on yourself. despite feeling quite unsure, i'm going to perservere. so i'm going off now.. ha. to make sure i get my econs right.

btw, i guess i wouldnt be blogging for quite a while.. it's not like i used to blog super regularly anyway, but that i'd be blogging even less? oh, the joy of blogging and reading blogs would be gone for now. somebody pls kick me if i start blogging crazily everyday.

talking about kicking myself, i really want to, for going back to choir.. i dont mean to say anything bad about choir at all.. it's just that i took a break at a wrong time and this only proves that i'm really not thinking right. now that A's is in less than a month, i might have to take a break again, which i totally feel bad about. i like going for practice, but it really takes up a lot of mental strength. 4 to 7 in church, singing.. and singing.. and night practice has begun as well.. so by the time i get home i just feel like plopping down onto the bed, so much time is wasted recharging. charlene (choir) was asking me when my A's was.. and i felt damn bad telling her i might disappear again in a few more weeks.. i'm back in choir for only 2 weeks and i'm leaving again soon?! esp when they've begun practice for cantata.. then again, i'll be in rome by mid dec.. but still! i'm at a loss.. i mean, i could always just only go for mass..

ok, angel and devil are exchanging fists within my head.. i'm singing for God, so i should go for mass! at least singing for mass will keep me close to God, besides the prayers. hope mona wouldnt mind me not going for practice.. ack.

lastly, i wanna thank an hons and sharn my dearest sista for all the encouragement that u 2 gave.. love u 2 lots! *hugz* i will hold on.. hopefully effectively.

oops.. i didnt realise the photos couldnt upload.. hm, funny that i could see them on my IE..

well anyway! today's Germie's birthday! Happy 18th Birthday gurl!

ok, back to some past stuff.. i think many might be wondering why i was unusually calm about him getting my no. Well, i couldnt have hung myself or go screaming around the school would I? honestly, i cant do anything and i most prolly wont.. but i'd appreciate it if my friends would kindly stop slapping my back and screaming my name in his presence..thankyou. even if what hui says is true, i dont think any response will come from me.. i dunno. you'd know when an infatuation is over, it's over. that's it. maybe i'd still find the person appealing, but nope, it's over. time to focus on more important things at hand.

seriously, am i someone who's incapable of passing gp? i have no idea, and i honestly-serious-to-the-core cant explain what a mess i'm in. was it the fact that i was thinking about pursuing a course in polytechnic in the midst of mugging?.. that made me feel i wasnt fit to be in a jc or rather reconsidering my academic plans? my grades are a mess, my brain's in a mess, so what's new?

peer pressure can be damn pressurizing. a complex feeling that i cant express in just a sentence? i dont wanna ramble here.. and i dont have the time? all i can say is that things arent going smoothly and i haven been praying hard enough. secondary and junior college.. it's a different thingy altogether.. i lack the enthusiasm, the liveliness, the perserverance and hopefulness i used to have.

i wish for a fairy godmother,
a shining wand;
a gentle tap is all i need,
to set all my problems free.
to put my mind on the right track,
to right my frustration,
and maybe hopelessness?
i may not be eloquent, outstanding,
or out-of-the-ordinary;
just requiring the guide,
a heavenly intervention
before i go insane.

help! the photos are blocked by table2.. i have no idea how to shift it to the right.. i did try aligning right but it's no use.. somebody heeeeeeelp!

These were taken during Discovery Fiesta..



from left: me, shell and mimi!


with char!


and mimi!

Aphrodite/Eros


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Your a lilly. your elegant and independant, like
the rose you are well respected and admired by
many.


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JOHNNY DEPP!!!!!!!!!!!! he's absolutely GORGEOUS!!! even with all that eyeliner.. haha. of cos not forgetting Orlando Bloom.. *drool* i lurrrrrve Pirates Of The Carribean!! till now i'm still confused why Jack Sparrow slit his palm.. don't tell me he's Will's dad?! but then again he's kinda young to be his father.. argh.. i wanna watch it again!!!! i watched it with Jo btw!! and we like so ahhhhhhhhh!! about johnny depp!! sexxxxxy... but totally gaaay when it comes it his walking.. haha.
i would think of it more as a laugh-my-ass-off instead of cool-dude movie though..

dunno y i woke up today feeling so lethargic. totally had no mood to mug at all. just lying around, watching kids central.. stoning.. digging my empty fridge for food (in vain).. complaining to my mom that i have ZERO cents in my wallet cos SOMEBODY "has no money"..
i'm eviiiiiiiiil. ha. come and condemn me to eternal exams-free life pleeeease...

oh yea, i was supposed to meet angie, shell and js at woodlands library.. but i just couldn't get my feet moving.. even if i went i wouldn't be studying properly anyway.. so i told angie i wasn't going.. (very sorry honz)

oh bummer. it's raining.. nice weather to be slacking/sleeping.. eeks. hope i get down to maths soon.. which i'm so gonna stuck at.

ok, for those who read JS's blog already, ya. we went to K-Box on thur... had a really fun time (including laughing at JS).. ok, it's not singing all those old hokkien songs that belong to our parents' era ok? we were singing songs by Tension, SHE blah blah.. cos mimi loves SHE.. heh. and the stupidest (is there such a word?) thing was we saw David Tao, Tao Zhe's name as Tao Zi Zi!!! cos de chinese word was separated.. ARGH. super stupid.. haha. we've decided to go there after prelims! and mimi: we're gonna sing "Tao Zi Zi" songs k? rofl..

and mimi, i think we shall not think too much about the big mistake we made.. we can't salvage the situation ya.. so hopefully things won't turn out too badly.. *cross fingers*

sian. i wanna go watch Pirates of the Carribean! johnny depp's pirate look is so cool! very different from Sleepy Hollows, where he always faints.. haha. and then there's Sinbad.. and i still havent watched LXG.. double sian.

i think it made no difference whether my grandma left or not.. i'm still not concentrating.. so my room is still unoccupied. kinda scary when i think about it. it's like the room's waiting for my grandma to come back.. eeeeeee... i have no idea why i havent moved back to my room.. i study there, but other than that my room's rather unused.. :(

ok, i'm going to my aunt's house to visit my maternal grandma.. i'm always more enthusiastic about visiting my maternal relatives.. i dont give two hoots about my paternal ones.. anw, back to my maternal grandma: she fell after stepping out of the toilet recently, and was diagnosed with a slight stroke.. i've always felt that she's very strong. at 87 she's still walking without help, cooks and does the laundry. impressive eh? most folks at this age might not have survived the fall with just a slight stroke.. and plus it's not the 1st time she fell.. super woman! *salutes*

off i go....

my grandma left for my seventh uncle's house today.
i wonder whether i should cry for joy or for sorrow..
1. i can have my room back to myself ie. i can mug in peace.
2. no one's gonna wake me up for school.. or cook me breakfast..
somehow the alarm clock doesn't have anymore effect on me, so i better set my backup alarms: watch, hp.. AND my mom.. hee. i have a tendency to turn off the alarm and go back to sleep, which is disastrous for geog paper tomorrow! ack.

this week, the moment i hear RnB and hip-hop songs, my legs start itching. sob. i'm deprived of CLUBBING. i desperately need to go clubbing! *calls out to kim* haiiii.. the moment prelims are over, i'm definitely going clubbing. i'm about to burst man! this is so pathetic.. haha.

ah well, back to mugging. :( x100000...

10 Irrelevant Things I Found Out Today:
1. The Cheese with egg jap noodles at taka food square tastes gooooood..
2. Guys clothes are niceeeeee..
3. The G2000 trench coat for guys is cooooool..
4. Topshop sux to the core for having sale on all those clothes that i don't like!
5. i'm super broke after buying those non-sale stuff...
6. i'm spending more than i'm saving... deficit!
7. Jay Chou rox!
8. i'm wasting my time.
9. i can't concentrate.
10. i totally suck at econs, math c and geog.

er.. i missed Mars.
guess my eyes were too glued to the tv.. anyway i doubt i would've seen it, cos my place's always cloudy. ha. and my house faces a "bad" direction, i can never get to see the fireworks on NDP.. :(

and i missed Tension.
they were in singapore on 22nd and 23rd Aug!! i cant believe i missed them.. arrrrrrghhhh! john is like so cuuuuute! haha.. i think i'd have slapped myself if they sang a capella at heerens... arrrrgh. arrrrgh. arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh. i couldn't possibly have gone to heerens cos i was to be at Downtown East celebrating gu niang's bday.. *pulls hair* imagine, if i knew about Tension's arrival before i left for gu niang's party, who would i choose? Tension, or my good ol' friend?? whoa, i dont wanna know.. >_<

what else did i miss.. i think that's it.. ha.
btw, spent a few hours at Woodlands library today.. with JS and Sammy.. i felt so bright.. hahaha.. i'm just kidding. the few hours were really.. wasted? cos i didnt do much.. and i'm way behind my study schedule for phy geog.. shucks. i got my notes vandalised, and i had to keep reminding JS to take his bf in hand.. JUST KIDDING! i'm not gonna go for any group study again.. i'm super unproductive. guess the only way's to stay home, but AWAAAAAY from my ever-so-attractive bed and forever-switched-on com and filled-with-yummy-food kitchen.. wow. so that leaves me with my grandma's room and the toilet. sheesh.

i have a premonition: i'll flunk my prelims.
yes, i mean everything. my brain's empty! i dont feel like i've remembered anything i've studied.. this is sooo not LDMR, it's me who's getting RETARDED. should i drink chicken of essence or brain supplements or pig's brain?? for those who are puking, pig's brain is actually very delicious. heh.

funny, but i'm actually looking forward to grad night after being brainwashed by eugene and jevon.. btw eugene makes an excellent salesman! haha. the power of persuasion... wonder what everyone's wearing? so that i wont appear in the same outfit as someone(s) on that night.. that will be DISASTROUS.

*yawn* i better get some zzzz.. i'm running tomorrow! (u must be thinking, does anne ever run?!) haha.. even more surprising, i'm running alone.. hope stadium's not too crowded.. *prays*

found this on jason's, so out of curiosity, i did the quiz..


I am scared of Willow trees.


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close my eyes,
take a deep breath,
and wake up to
l.o.n.e.l.i.n.e.s.s.

heck, the font colour sux but at least the entries are easier to read :P

arrrrr... screw GP.
luckily this is only prelims, if it was the A's i'd be crying right now!

on a happier note, today's Angie's bday! Happy 18th Birthday Honz!! hee, Sammy even bought her a pink cushion! *winkwink* hm, next comes the diamond ring already right?? :P it's also my Dad's 50th birthday!! wanted to buy him a card at marks and spencers.. but i forgot.. oops.

i dunno if it's the after-effects of GP, but somehow i'm feeling very sleeeeeeeeepy......zzz.
or maybe Tension's latest album has a sleep-inducing effect.......zzz.

the burberrys wraparound shawl zoe tay wore in Rome is like to-die-for.... haha.
the only thing that's keeping me alive now is the Rome trip, really. and maybe 15min of Collapse on msn.com! and of cos, my hourly dose of Holland V on ch8..
GP is like.. this coming TUESDAY.
argh.

oh, gu niang's birthday chalet is this sat.. FYI, he's Kenneth from my youth group, CYF. despite prelims being just round the corner, i'm attending his party, after all, the party's not the whole day, so why not take the chance to slack? :P at the worst, i'll bring work to revise while on the mrt. grr.. i have no life!

having flu, mild cough and sore throat now.. guess it's the stress?

btw, i came across a "Things That Make Us Singaporean" book which, i think belongs to my bro. it comprises of messages or poems written by singaporean citizens about, of cos, the things that make us singaporean! some interesting ones:

"Recipe for a Nation

MRT, Newton Circus,
Esplanade at night,
Singtel, Starhub, chicken rice,
Orchids, lions, crescent light.

Orchard Rd to Suntec,
Flats in the sky, reservoirs around,
Rojak and char kway teow.

Mix."
-Melissa Ng Myen Ping, student, 15

"Never see chewing gum for more than 10 years."
-Woon Kheng Boon, engineer, 32

"Singaporeans?
Aiyah, so easy...
Go kopitiam, can see already!
See they go cut queue?
We Singaporeans, so kiasu!
Greedy one, never full!
Eat rokjak, want yong-tau-foo!
Oi, what you laughing about??!!"
-Loh Huilin, student, 14

i'm really upset. i finally managed to log on with my GPRS but the pic zai sent me, the one of us together, is like super pixelated AND it's in BLACK AND WHITE... T_T my phone sux, cos it can't receive mms for nuts. furthermore, i have to go online to view the pic!!! haii.. does that mean that nokia is still the best?! if only i had V200.. sobz~

math mock suxxxxxxxx.
that shows how well i'm prepared for prelims..

anyway, today was The Assumption of our Mother Mary. went to Blessed Sacrament Church with Fran, Grace and Eugene.. Fran said the parishoners have no sense of punctuality, and i thought my church was bad. but from what i saw, i think it isn't that bad.. had lots of questions floating around in my mind, but quite an experience nonetheless. one thing struck me: i thought mass procedures were identical for all Catholic churches. weird. and they have an OLD choir, as in middle to old age choir. i kept telling Fran that she should start a youth choir, but then again, i hardly saw any youths in attendance.. i mean, the priest may speak slow, the choir may sound mediocre, the music may play super slowly, but if the focus is on God and reverence for Him and the Eucharistic Celebration, i don't think it is boring at all. for me, the sermon was pretty long-winded but i didn't find it boring at all. the mass is never boring. it is the people celebrating the mass who are not paying attention or not focused. am i wrong to say that? eg. Fr Louiseau from my church. he's old, and he has his accent (is it french? oops i cant remember) and though his speech may be kinda slurred, some people just switch off cos they think he's boring, but if everyone listens carefully there's good advice in that sermon. oops, i've been rattling on and on..

i wonder why the church never gives an explanation about the importance and the holiness of the Eucharistic Celebration. if they did, people won't be late for mass, they won't be leaving the church before the mass is over, won't be letting their irritating hps (with orh-biang ringtones) ring during mass, won't be letting their children scream and run about the pews, won't be receiving the holy communion irrespectfully, blah the blah the blah. sometimes i really wonder, why some people attend mass yet don't participate wholeheartedly and with reverence for God. what's the use? worse of all, they disturb other devotees who are really there to unite with God. some people even attend mass without knowing why they do what they do. no wonder they find mass boring. um, i'm rattling again...

finally had the time to browse through others' blogs.. i went to sam fern's, then came across alex yeoh's blog.. oops, didn't know he had one.. i'm super suaku.. anyway, he mentioned something like time passing real fast, and it reminded me of today, had to write our last journal entry for moral ed period. yeah, time's slipping past so fast, only to reminisce the wonderful memories of the past and (try) to catch hold of the fast train of the present. just only a yr and a half ago, i was a newbie in SAJC and wondering where to go. now, i'm about to take my A's and still wondering where to go.. geez. one moment i hoped A's could be over asap, but another moment i didn't want JC days to be over so soon..

hm, to keep the memories of JC, i must take photos everywhere around sch before A's.. haha. like take as many chaoyang pics as possible with sharn.. lol. but FIRST, i must buy a cam! haha. spotted auyong's nikon coolpix at toa payoh hub! going at only $399.. UP $648.. hm. should i......

oh i almost forgot. they announced prom nite this morning during morning asssembly.. what the.. Masquerade de Saint?! nope.. no mask for me. and no way i'm spending my money on Orchard Hotel which is at the fringe of town.. unless.. i dunno unless what.. haha. made a deal with angie (Shell in?) that we'll go clubbing on prom nite, while the rest of the cohort will be diggin into their 10-course dinner.. unless.. dunno unless what again. seriously, i've never heard of Orchard Hotel until this morning, so i'm not expecting anything grand. no way can this yr's prom nite be compared to IJ grad nite at Conrad.. i thought $60 was a good deal for such a grand place and 10-course dinner and not to mention the crowded dancefloor! the music was goooood.. and also too much free gifts to carry home..haha.

i won't imagine myself dressing up for a masquerade, and i can't. gdness.. it's gonna be a nightmaaaaaaaaare....

after one million yrs, i finally blogged at home..
really, i dunno what to type now, except that prelims are in less than 2 weeks and i haven't really knocked that fact into my dumb head? btw, didn't go to school today.. sian. the school might as well declare pre-prelim holidays so we can study at home.. somehow school doesn't have the slightest attraction. also, i can take a break whenever i can :P and i can order almost anything that is available in my fridge.. haha.

opportunity cost of studying at home = getting hounded by mr wee at morning assembly tomorrow..
aaaarrrrrrgggghhh. i hate opportunity costs. oh, i missed GP too. does that mean DC again?!?! *dies*

hmph. luckily i saw our prelim timetable at national day celebration.. the subs are divided quite evenly, so it's not like prelim's crammed in between 3 days.. phew.

disaster: progress report given out today.
shit man. i really wanna burn it. cos there's nothing nice to say about me on that piece of paper.

ATTENTION ALL LAMERS (OR ANYONE LOOKING FOR A GOOD LAUGH)!!!
DADDY DAYCARE IS NOW SHOWING IN ALL THEATRES!! BE SURE TO CATCH IT!
shut your eyes from those lousy reviews and stop by your nearest cinema.. to buy the tix to DADDY DAYCARE!
haha.. am i over-advertising?

i'm still in homeroom.. ponned math lect :P
(hears angie beside me, threatening to kill jason for... ahem)
lol.. let them settle their little dispute abt.. ahem.
haha.

it's so sad. i was suaned during gp just now by ting ting, lacretia and jamie.. saaaaaaad. i cant tell lame jokes anymore... it's like:
Anne: tell you a story, you must laugh k.. it's abt an ant and an elephant. an ant was crossing the desert, and saw an elephant approaching. then it dug a hole in the sand to hide himself, but he put his left leg out. a lizard crossed his path and asked the ant: "what are you doing?". the ant answered: "shhhh... i'm going to trip the elephant..."
lacretia and jamie: ha ha ha.
ting ting: *silent*
Anne: ting ting.. why you no reaction one...
ting ting: cos i know the story...
lacretia: we know too, we're just laughing cos you told us too..
Anne: ... ... ...

ya.. i told them to laugh cos before that i told them a joke and they didnt find it funny.. so saaaad!!! i officially retire from the Lame Club.. and join the physically handicapped association.. need more training.. haii

my dar tricked me. she asked me to look at the gallery and i did, then i thought potato was walking past our table, so i turned, and was going to shout "potato", but... damn it. guess who i saw.. so embarrasssing. it made me look as if i deliberately turned to look at him.. arrrrrggghhh~ and he had to go to the drink dispenser to buy green tea.. when our table was just beside it. grreat. and dar had to put her shoulder around me and ask me whether i wanna buy grrrreen tea. how wonderful. arrrrrggghhh~

i feel like running now. as in p.e. running.. dunno y. i feel as heavy as an elephant. yaya.. but i wont be tripped by the ant. >_<

have u ever been insulted to the very core and feel so useless and that you were nothing but a burden ever since you were born?

ya. i have.

by my very own mother.

haii.. i'm in B11 ONCE AGAIN.. this is so sad. i have broadband internet waiting for me at home and i'm here with what?! 56k super-slow-loading com. bahhh.
i'm wallowing in self-pity, dont stop meeeee.

i cant believe i forgot all about photo-taking yesterday.. and the worse thing was, JS and i were the only ones absent. so i have to take photos with HIM. uuuuggghhh... nooooooo... i dont waaaaaaaant!!! *cries*

(angie and jason playing beside me now.. very noisy, these 4yr-olds..)

hmph. fran sabotaged me just now at ET's table.. super-traumatised! *glares at fran* luckily ET's super blur.. or else i would've died.

(angie and jason again, tsk tsk tsk.. jason asking angie whether she wanted a.. er.. ahem)

it's not that i'm eavesdropping, but these 2 are super loud!! i hope B11's soundproof.. haha.

geez~ the enthu mr lee who led us through College Song and Glory Glory Hallelujah...

i cant believe i had to nag my mom to stop playing the com! sheesh! this is getting from bad to worse.. even my mom is becoming a com addict!

i dont want to start on this, but i cant help but wonder whether my grandma's staying at my place is the reason why i cant seem to concentrate on my work??? i have to admit, i really wish i could have my own room back.. at least i could shut out any kind of disruption.. small ones at least. arrrrrrgh~ my grandma's only leaving to one of my uncle's after her bday party which is like in SEPTEMBER!!! -_- prelims would have been over by then.. get my room back also no use already!!!! if i fail my prelims i'm so gonna kill myself.

btw, DC sux, although Mr Silas is not that bad. i'm never gonna pon gp again. HAHA. i'm sure hazel agrees with me. :P

oh my. College Day is.. i dunno what to say? boring? not exactly. except for Han's speech and cheering for people, i think the rest of it can like go to sleep! one thing that kept me awake was cheering for Chelle! i'd slap her back like a million times when ritchie (her darling) went up stage.. lalalaaa.. ritchie is not bad looking! and they look good together! wheeeee! the next couple of the yr man..(after mimi and mermer of cos!) lol~ i think the best part of College Day was the last part when we were singing the College Song, cos that old man was super hilarious man! i bet he leads the College Song every yr.. (cos he did it last yr) it was kinda mean, but almost the whole hall was laughing at him.. geez~

surprisingly the day passed very fast.. phy geog always seemed to go on forever, but it went fine today. Mr G scared me, or rather our class, to death this morn. he came into class, when it was supposed to be math tut, and said take out our human geog tut. gosh, Mr G should've taken a photo man, cos our faces were like.. super stunned. haha. then it was poor jason's turn to look shocked cos he was the one to pass the msg that human geog tut was on mon.. Mr G sure knows how to spring surprises on us mannnn.. he even joked that he's taking over math tut.. i almost believed him k! sheesh~ then Mrs Ng came in and we were like.. so relieved!! lol~

erm, i think the break after math lect was the most traumatising.. ET was like sticking around in the cafe. not like i dislike him now, but i mean, why walk RIGHT IN FRONT of me when i'm talking to Fran?!?! the space between Fran and i was so narrow and he just had to walk through it.. really, somebody tell me why he had to do that man. but then again, i didnt even bother to look at him.. i wonder why. angie almost knocked into him.. or did she? i still think he looks cute after so long. i wonder why too. *pulls hair*

i'm getting too excited for the Rome trip. perhaps i'm mad, cos i've started to think about some stuff i'd wanna bring there.. the trip is like 5 MONTHS away!!! but maybe it's not too early for my mom to start writing down the list on Things To Pray.. haha. i seriously hope that nothing bad will happen just before the trip.. eg The Sars Strikes Back or something.. i better start praying now.. lalalaaa~

it's the end of the week.. and i'm tired even though i havent even started hwk.. i'm a pig!! heck la, i'm gonna sleep NOW!

i'm in SA Library!!
hmm, i seem to be blogging everywhere else except at home.. O_o
sadly, i'm waiting for D.C. which is at 2.30.. what else, for ponning GP..
luckily Hazel's doing with me.. i dont wanna do dc ALOOOOONNNNEEE.. haha. anw it's Mr Silas who's discipline master now.. i wonder if he's as sadistic as Mr Muthu... ugh~ *crosses fingers* >_<

haii.. i'm not looking fwd to Fri, aka College Day, COS! we have to go to sch at like early in the morning for GEEEEOOOOG (dryman's) dyiiiiiiingggg... while others can report in at 12.45.. sob.

my brain still cant register the fact that prelims are approaching. i just cant seem to settle down for a non-disturbed time to do hwk and revise... sux. when the time comes for hwk, my eyelids automatically start to droooooop... esp for econs. i really dunno why. my body is sooo against me! *wails*

btw! JS wrote KELVIN'S hp no. on angie's tissue packet today.. haha. i'm quite sure u didnt chuck it away honz! grab the opportunity ya? hohoho.. she's gonna kill me for this.. hm, i've promised not to tease her about sammy but i never said anything about keeping quiet when it comes to her NEW LOVER KELVIN? hiakz~

ok, i better shut up soon. geez, this seat's freezing! i can see icicles dripping down from my fingers! :P

i'm in homeroom B11! with 3 sane people: michelle, mimi and grace, and 2 super insane toots: angie and jason! angie is like screaming awaaaaaaay! and jason laughing.. sounds scandalous. *teehee*

i soooo dont wanna talk about what happened during econs which was just a period ago, but ya, er.. Mr Wee was exclaiming that the class clock was missing, and we guessed it was stolen. BUT THEN, he exclaimed again about our missing class markers.. that was it. he asked me why the markers were missing. CAN U BELIEVE IT?!?! I CANT BELIEVE IT!! then the class started laughing and going "OOHHHHH...." and i was like OMG?!?! *hears angie and jason panting behind me and what seens to be the sound of a chair topppling* ok, now they're screaming.. haha. no matter what, i'm not turning behind to look.. :P

oh shit, there's another class coming in.. gotta run!

WHEE!! i got the WAP for my hp today! SOOOO EXCITING.. i was trying out the webbies and d/led a few ringtones and an ugly matrix reloaded wallpaper. ack. i doubt i'll be using much of it anyway, cos the service prolly costs a bomb. eeks~ *shields eyes from the next hp bill*

ahh.. i know it's a tad difficult to read the black words against the dark purple, but pls bear with this layout for now.. cos i changed it jus today morning at like 2plus?! perhaps i should get something super plain. like plain white. just WHIIIIIITEEEEE.. heehee.

btw, we're supposed to update our CIP forms and return to the tutors.. BUT, if i havent done any, how can i possibly update?! the only recent one is Metta.. anything before that i dont remember! and the total adds up to only 29.5hrs!!!! what the?! 20hrs=1 pt.. sheesh. for the first time in my life, i'm going to FAIL CIP. WOW...

our deeeeeeeaaarrrrr principal Mrs Lim Chye Tin just reminded us that today is the start of Week 4.. grrrrreat. prelims commence Week 9. i have a pathetic 5 weeks to cram all that math, geog, and econs into my non-existent brain. God pls help me...

ooo.. i know i'm a super suaku but i just found out in one of my emails that authors including Jane Green pose as readers and send in good reviews just to boost their book sales.. how disappointing! to think i like reading her books! haha.. well anyway, the SAJC Library has great Jane Green (The Hulk's sister.. hulk=green???) books.. just finished reading Bookends.. super-addictive, funny..

"CATH AND SI ARE BEST FRIENDS.
Total opposites, always together and both unlucky in love. Cath is scatty, messy and emotionally closed, and Si is impossibly tidy, bitchy and desperate for a man of his own. They live near each other in West Hampstead, close to their other best friends Josh and Lucy - who are married, with a devil-spawn child called Max and a terrifying Swedish nanny, Ingrid.

When Portia steps back into their lives - beautiful Portia, the undisputed queen of their group at university, who broke their collective hearts one night and from whom they have all gradually, silently, grown apart - her reappearance sets off a chain of events that tests Cath and her friends to the limit. Does Portia have a hidden agenda, or is she just looking for happy endings all round? Whatever the answers, none of them could ever predict the outcome..."

quite an enticing intro to me.. and the ending is just as what the author says: unpredictable. i think the addition of gay characters (Si) tend to make the plot all the more exciting.. i cant wait to borrow more Jane the Green books..

oops, Holland V on Ch8 is starting soon.. i'm gonna chop a good seat!! cos my whole family watches it.. haha.

shit.. this is becoming a weekly blogging thing.. and i dont like the way this is going..
i was going to finally log on to blogger but my dad just had to come right behind me at that very second and request that i let him play a few rounds of Freecell.. ARGHHHH. that's life for me.

BT2 results are depressing. for me. i still havent had the guts to tell my parents about the nice red F that i scored for Geog.. UGH. i'm such a coward. but then again, my ears will have no peace once i tell my mom.. everyday my mom will hound on the F.. regardless of the A i got for math.. can u believe it, she had no reaction when i told her "i got A for math!" how encouraging. bah.
ANYBODY OFFERING GEOG TUITION?!?! econ tuition commencing this week.. *rubs hands in glee*

ANYWAY, JS's bday party was yesterday (day before yesterday). and u know what?! i was so shocked. my mom actually thought i was going clubbing! (the word "party" is very sensitive for her u know) hahaha.. i wanted to roll on the floor.. if u know what i mean. to me, JS and clubbing just dont link.. LOL~ ok what shocked me was that she didnt scream about me going clubbing, since she assumed i did. WOW. miracle mannnn.. *wonders* does that mean she approves? so does it mean i can go for the next party??? *slaps myself* THINK PRELIMS! haha, now back to JS's party.. hmmm.. for one thing, i seemed to be the only one who thought his hair and shirt looked good.. O_o? (oh nooo i will not talk about the pants!) and we were almost constantly suaning angie and sammy.. *evil laughter* i'm 100% sure i'm getting slaughtered the moment i step into school.. eurgh~ the party was ok, food not bad! and i agree with angie, his yvip friends are pretty sociable.. left the party early though.. obviously most of us were feeling out of place with Js's other friends, so i wonder why JS insisted on getting everyone to play games.. guess the supposed ice-breakers didnt turn out as he expected?? *shrug*

okok, so i sorta ponned choir. :P but since JS gave me an invitation, it's a valid excuse right??? pls tell me Mona (my choir mistress) wont kill me.. *crosses fingers*

GUESS WHAT. i DIDNT go to Embassy! *pictures the angelic me* puke puke.. haha. seriously i could've, since my mom assumed i went clubbing.. oh darn. think kim's gonna kill me if i tell her.. at first i was feeling all guilty about the red F, now i so regret not going.. bahhh. life's full of regrets. Discuss.

oh my, do i hear something about Centro??? hahahaha... 25th july??? that's exactly one month to PRELIMS. darn again~ if i went for Embassy i'd never go for Centro, not for a million pounds.. (er, not literally)

got thrashed at pool today (or rather, yesterday).. sob. i'm super rusty, considering i havent played for many months.. but it was fun hanging out with the guys.. and i'm such a super suaku! 1st i didnt know bus 167 goes to thomson.. ARGH. 2nd i didnt know Jem's grandma stayed jus opp him.. lol.. and 3rd, our Archbishop Nicholas Chia (YES HIM!) is his GRAND-UNCLE. sheesh. and everybody knew that. double sheesh! haha..

BT2 is gradually freaking me out. i just reminded myself of my sucky grades and i'm probably gonna do this badly for A's as well.. EEEEEEEKKSSSS.. kiss goodbye to NUS.. ARGHHHHHHHH...

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phew.. did cip today man!! 3 hrs.. for Metta.. it's the rehab centre i got attached to after my sec2 Youth Voluntary Involvement Programme (YVIP).. JS is in it too.. as in the camp, cos different groups were attached to different homes.. some old folks, some orphanages.. it was a 2-week attachment at Tampines Metta.. had a real gd experience with the folks there.. altho i had quite some communication problems.. very few folks could speak english. oh yea, i was like thinking, folks before our time can speak english??? haha. lesson learnt: dont underestimate old folks. and most of them were lonely cos their children "dumped" them there.. one of the grannies told me that. ok, soooo, 2 of my metta frens and i went tiringly around Toa Payoh Hub to hunt for ppl to buy Metta's hand-made bear keychains.. sheesh. u might think 3hrs is easy shit but it's NOT. it's worse than flag day.. we got a big plastic bag of bears each, 5 different colours: light pink, brown, purple, orange and yellow. and after 3hrs our tins were nowhere near quarter-full.. talk abt demoralising. the usual stuff u get when u ask ppl whether they wanna "adopt a bear for only $2", like, treat u as if u're transparent, give u $0.20 and expect to get a bear (the naive children did).. and u could see all those disappointed faces of those kids who sooo wanted the bear but bcos of their stingy giam-to-the-core parents they couldnt.. ONLY FOR $2!! and they're hand-made k! we were so demoralised and tired that we couldnt wait for 3hrs to be up.. we even did a countdown.. haha. spastic, but under those circumstances, who wouldnt?! however, the only consolation was that i met Auyong, Shamu and Weiling at the hub! made them buy a bear each.. ouch. really sorry abt it, but i was really desperate for someone to buy the bears! ya, and tried to persuade Jem, Greg and Aileen to buy the bears cos they were there too! i wish i had bumped into more frens.. then they'd hate me for making them buy bears.. wahaha..

i always wonder, are parents always bias against girls? like everything my bro does is condoned and mine isnt?!?! i'm like the fucking older one here! oh, so that means he can hog the com without getting grounded.. he can bathe as long as he likes, even longer than me.. no curfew at all at sec3, while during my time it was so different.. have the same allowance as me when he's a bloody 3 yrs younger!! i demand an explanation and a compensation! in sec3 i only got like $5/6 everyday.. now my bro get $10. bloody hell. i totally had the misconception that my parents were non-bias and treated both of us equally. damn it man. so now i have to be the stupid little angel and he can go be the gunman.

Life is unfair. Comment.

ya, so does that mean i'll be screamed at when i tell my parents i'm going Embassy this coming sat? sure thing. first thing dat happens the moment i mouth p-a-r-t-y my eardrums'll burst. i'll see my mood. it's 2C1, stupid angel or rebel-gurl. hmph.

why do i not have time to blog even tho i haven been rushing thru hwk? ask my bro.. hmph~

I LOVE CHARLIE'S ANGELS! yee-ha! i seriously dun mind watching it again.. haii.. but do i have the time?! NO.

ok, the twins ladeh and ladan have already left this world so why do they keep flashing them on the news? really sad for them tho.. i, like sharn, thought they would most prob survive cos of the modern tech in s'pore.. so i was wrong. i tink most ppl were over-confident of the surgeons, the tech and all..

sammy&angie incident again on fri.. they had lunch together, more like we forced angie to eat with sammy.. but u know, sammy's such a gd sport ya? no hesitation when we asked him to join us.. lol. really sorry abt it honz, everytime we see the 2 of u together we tend to forget everything.. *promises* i'll TRY not to do it again.. heh~

oh yea, yesterday was really fun.. Parish Youth Council (PYC)'s annual Praise n Worship really rocked. quite the christian way of doing PnW.. not bad at all.. plus there were new songs, so it's not the it's-the-old-songs-again kinda thing.. refreshing~ really enjoyed myself, sung my lungs out. haha. it's true, wad Fr Yeo said.. we shud bring more ppl over nxt yr. it'll sooo rock. heh. and i was beside Felicia.. she's my sec1&2 classmate.. from 4S4.. (dith u remember?) she's back for vacation.. lik Jing.. saw her at IJ Carnival with Amelia and all! the IJ memories jus whooshes back all at once.. altho it didnt hav dat much of a special feeling anymore cos the buildings' not the same anymore.. i doubt they even sing the IJ Spirit Song anymore... it's like when we went back for mass last yr.. it was sooo quiet.. maybe it's bc Sr Anne's not der?? (ok, it's not ME alrite?) hm.. jumping from PnW to IJ Carnival... wow.

btw, talking abt reminiscing days in IJ, Nurul msged me!! the last time i saw her was a coincidence at SRJC! when CYF was having the Sports Fiesta! dat was last yr! missing the days of AEP now.. haha. and i thot i saw Mr Teo at IJ Carnival.. wonder is Mrs Tay went back.. didnt get to see Mr Teh and Mrs Teo Whye Choo.. miss all of them.. sob~

kk, der i go.. rambling on and on.. der's jus sooo much to talk abt IJ.. :)

hear ye! i'm going to Rome after A's! it's a CYF thing.. and after much talk to and by my mom..i can go, on the condition that i write down a list of wad to pray when i go der.. haha. well, it's not my fault that i'm so forgetful rite? thanx to my mom, now i'm wondering if i'll freeze to death der.. haha. i had to listen to my her complain abt how much $$$ i'll spend on clothes and allowance.. darn. ECONS ECONS. Forex rate... bleurgh.

Embassy Party. 19th Jul.. PRELIMS.. 25th Aug.. seems like i cant go for it??? like wad shawn said.. i keep saying i dun go, but come sat i'll end up der.. ARGH~ it jus seems so difficult to forget it when it keeps revolving in ur mind?!?!?!

ok, gonna catch Charlie's Angels later at cine.. not with angie tho.. heh. maybe i'll go stalk her after the movie.. lalalaaaa..

wheeeeeee... the chalet was fun!! altho i had to carry alot of extra food home.. and there were no stars!!! but the bbq food was great and the staying-up-almost-all-night was fun too.. it's almost-all-night cos i decided to catch some sleep just before dawn.. the most enjoyable part was suaning angie and sammy like crazzzzzzzzzy... hehe. *sees angie charging with a parang* whoohoooo. like HALF the class knows!! muahahaha.. imagine the WHOLE class went for chalet and gets all the juicy info about angie and sammy's love life mannnnn... wheeeee.. LOL.. OH YEA, and the TRUTH OR DARE was the juiciest.. haha, altho i missed out the part when sammy had to spill out the truth about who he likes.. darn. couldnt hear him say "angie". darn darn. HAHA. and eugene was super good at asking all those questions! dat got all the guys, esp JS dying.. haha. i'm not gonna spill it here... those who dunno go ask JS. lalalaaaa.. for me, i did have to tell them abt ET, and angie had to add in all those stuff ya??? hmm.. mine not as juicy as JS's la.. cos it's been for quite long already.. plus it's LDMR-ing.. nothing interesting, not like sammy&angie-interesting u know.. hehe. i wonder when will we have such a fun time again?? wheeee...

anw, stayed on at sentosa after the chalet to meet kim and angela.. ok la.. sadly it was just the 3 of us.. and plus i suck at vball and it's like their cca! truthfully i felt kinda left out la.. since most of the time i either cudnt get the ball or shot it to africa or sth.. maybe that was a bad timing.. besides sunset bay was like dominated by guys.. so weeeeeeirrrrrrd. so i gave up trying to play vball, decided to go for a swim. shucks. wrong decision. got stung by baby jellyfish! that freaked kim out tho.. sorry~ but luckily it wasnt too bad.. kiim's hp got stolen tho.. bad timing as well, cos her 7250 died.. is tat suay or is dat SUAY?! well anw, i jus stoned while they played vball game with some other guys.. really sian la.. so i left lo.. wad, stay there and rot meh.. plus got cyf session ma!

talking abt session, it was, how to say. really struck a chord man. after listening to isabelle i sorta thought that the 2nd part of session was arranged for me indirectly kinda thing.. it was like God had meant for me to go down for session, for steph to make me go down even tho i was super tired.. really thank steph for tat act.. otherwise i really wud've jus stuck my head into the pillows.. yeaa.. so i poured half my chest out.. it's like such a accumulated thing so if i started i wud've taken lik 3 days to finish it... it wasnt too emotional.. but the act of re-accounting just sent tears streaming automatically.. guess the cut's really deep.. i never thought all these relatives' stuff would affect me dat badly.. and just 5 yrs ago i was so ignorant abt all those stuff.. to think my mom had to bear and suffer alone.

anw, is partying really that bad?! i never found it very.. er.. BAD. does partying mean i'm rebellious?! cmon! do i look rebellious to u?! it's also not like i club every week?! the last time i told my mom i was going for party after abstaining for 3 bloody freaking MONTHS and wanna guess wad she said?! mom shouts: girl ar! why u ALWAYS go dancing?! --> -_- >_< like 3 months is ALWAYS meh?!?!?!?! i sooo found no sense in her claims.. THEREFORE, i'm going Embassy on the 19th. HAHAHA... i'm wicked~

can i believe it?
can YOU believe it?
EXAMS ARE OVER!!

haha.. i'm going mad.. i don't care if i fail BT2.. it's over!! wheeee!!! *breathes*

shopped abit today.. haven't felt soooo gd for such a long time... and i could tell Fran was tired but she still accompanied me till i got my stuff.. i luv Fran!! :)

oh yea, i should start writing up a list of what i wanna do, before i dont have a chance to.. somehow it has finally dawned on me that i would not have ANY life after school starts again.. double sian..

what's playing on my wmp now: Tavares-Heaven Must Be Missing An Angel
ooooooooo... i like so cant wait to watch Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle!! *excited excited* i saw the cd at hmv today and i was so tempted to buy it.. luckily i didnt, cos i jus dled most of the songs.. HAHA. so much for fighting piracy.. btw, Justin Guarini is good! his voice is so smooth..

ahem. IS ANYBODY GONNA ACTUALLY WEAR THE ANTI-DRUG ABUSE PIN?!?!?!

*chants* chalet chalet chalet... so excited i cant sleep! lol... i wonder what we're going to do at the chalet tmr.. the girls are definitely not the kind to join me in their bikinis and suntan and play vball.. darn. at least there's bbq! still thinking about how to spend the night in sentosa too.. absolutely no idea, except that i WILL NOT play mahjong or card games the entire night. total killer man... maybe a stroll along the beach, or just lie on the soft, welcoming stretch of sand and stare up at the starry sky... that is if there are any stars at all.. hmph.

hmm.. there's a party at Embassy next sat.. heard there's free flow.. ooooo.. so tempted! haha. guess i'm going then! :P hope the free flow makes up for the freakin 25 bucks.. heard the music's gonna be great too.. oooo... lol. *cant wait*

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wheee... i haven't blogged in almost a week!! feel like slapping myself for neglecting my blog, but can i help it if i have a dull and drony life???? (i mean after sentosa..haha) the only thing i'm looking fwd to is sentosa again!! i don't care i'm going to stay on after our overnight chalet..

btw, this blog layout is sooo starting to get on my nerves.. i swear to change it after BT2.. haii.. the wonders of BT2 and amazing things it does to suck away our lives..

oh yeaa.. one consolation is dat i've finally got my hp.. yea u guessed it.. samsung S300.. well, the dictionary sux.. (anything after nokia sux cos nokia's no. 1 for user-friendliness) i had major problems typing my sms-es.. darn it. i still am, in fact. takes a looooong while to get use to this phone.. BUT then!! it's COLOURED! (great colour quality too) what else do i want?! i'm easily contented.. i dont need hp with mms and camera.. not like i like to take photos all the time ya.. anw, this hp is quite good at keeping me occupied with lame games.. really, and it has bowling!! that one's cool cos it's cool! haha.. i cant wait to d/l games after BT2.. can play my hp lik mad... >_< btw, i'll have to change my no. soon.. which i really regret.. i luv my current no!! sob..

ok, since i haven been updating, i shall talk abt old stuff now.. like... the choir picnic! --> quite fun, but the afternoon sun was scorching and considering i just got sunburnt, my skin wasn't exactly feeling fantastic.. haha. oh yeaaa.. and the bbq after that at sam's place.. the food there was gooooooood... and there was alot.. but it DRIZZLED.. oh well, couldn't see any stars cos the sky was all cloudy.. (fyi i'm mesmerised by starry skies)

argh.. i'm a big fat liar.. i told my mom i was going to study at friend's place.. but actually i went to ecp to study.. sheesh.. and i had to run like 1000miles away from the chalet so my mom wouldn't find out i was somewhere else.. i couldnt possibly tell her the truth cos if i did she'd never believe i'd be able to study there.. quite true.. BUT i DID do work!! jus that it's not a lot.. lol. argh. ok i feel so bad. then again, instinctively she thought i went out to play.. as usual she never trusts me.. even when i tell her the truth... ok, that is another story, details of which i dont want to go into.. argh.

seriously, i should be falling on my bed right now and wailing and kicking and sobbing like crazy cos i'm so totally not ready for BT2. but i dunno why i havent done it. i certainly dont feel accomplished, or knowledgeable, or geog-fied.. damn, Boxer's lines dont work on me.. "i will work harder, i will work harder..." see? doesnt work. maybe i will start to see the light when prelims hit me.. like some gigantic destructive tsunami.. then perhaps i'll truly start working hard on trying to ace my exams.. as the chinese saying goes: hugging Buddha's leg at the last min.. sooo... can i hug God's leg?? *slap myself*

ANNE!!!!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!!

I'M PEELING!!!
yea man, sentosa was great fun! (resulting in me slabbing on moisture cream like mad!!!) island life, love it! sentosa days are wild, and the nights are magic! island life, love it! haha. the sun, sand and sea... absolutely wonderful... except i got my hp soaked in seawater. ya, i'm an idiot, blahblahblah... and it couldnt operate till this morn..but NOW, it's OFF AGAIN. freak. i'm so worried i'll have to pay full price for my new hp... arghhhhhh!!! i need a hp repairman/woman quick!!!

this week's Corpus Christi.. celebrating the Body and Blood of Christ. i think today was one of the few times i really really participated in the mass and listening to what Fr Lee had to say, while wearing the hot green robes... great achievement! cos usually up in the choir loft the front rows dont get any aircon, and the fans arent exactly blowing in our direction.. so it's kinda difficult to concentrate.. well one thing i observe about my parish is that we have many Sunday Catholics.. and some of them particularly have this bad habit of leaving before the final hymn is over. sickening people. didnt u bunch of @!$#@$$#^#@!# just hear Fr Lee talk about completing the celebration of the Eucharist?!?! #@$#@%*#@...

well anyway, tonight's a rare occasion i have dinner out wif my parents and bro! went to sakae sushi.. i was like staring at the newly opened Swenson's restaurant but my oblivious dad... no la, he said it was too ex.. BAHHHHHH... spoiler. but sushi wasnt too bad. ate quite alot..conveyor belt mah..what would you do if you had tons of dishes "driving" past? the natural reaction would be the take it and eat it. haha. and they had mocha almond fudge ice-cream! whoohoo! well now i know why i like ice-cream so much.. my mom said she loved it when she was younger.. gee~ i wonder if tastes were really hereditary???

hmm.. my bro and i suggested watching Ju-on after dinner, but my parents refused... too scared?? haha.. prob too stingy to spend $8.50x4... or maybe they didnt wanna puke out the sushi.. O_o? i would prob have screamed out the sushi if i did.. haha~

well.. i think i'm gonna die. i wont be able to revise anything tomorrow cos i've got my whole day occupied: choir picnic from 9-2pm to welcome the newcomers and BBQ dinner at Sam Koh's place... (yay i'll be able to admire the stars again!!!) btw she's from CYF so it's like church thingy after church thingy.. sheesh.. i gotta find some way or another to replace the time i've lost to mugging..

time's passing really fast. this coming week will be the last of our hols.. damn. i better shut myself in my room the entire day and not go out man. and everyday i'll count down to the day 02A51's going to sentosa! again! phew-weet~

shit. gotta sleep now! tomorrow gotta like be in church by 8.45!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! i miss homeworkland!!!

i still cant believe i made that decision.

sounds serious eh? yea of cos it is! i actually stayed home tonite! THE NIGHT OF PARTYING AND ENJOYMENT!! T_T it's nearing 11pm.. sobsob.. and i can imagine all the dudes and the babes on the dance floor mannnn.. sheeeeesh~ what can i say? i'm a good girl. yeaaaaa. LOL... :P

yesterday was the best night i ever had.

ermmm.. sounds a lil sick.. but ya! what were YOU thinking?! i spent the entire night from 7plus to 1am watching and watching and watching AND watching TV shows!!!! WOW!!! that's an achievement! i could get Couch Potato Of The Year Award at this rate! now i feel soooo guilty...

OH. OK i jus thought of a L-joke!!
Q: What's the world's first creature to feel guilty?
A: The fish. Why??? cos it sings i feel gill-ty... sooo GILL-ty...
haha.. you'd never have guessed that one ya? :P

well, btw. i've decided to keep my complaints to myself.. bottle it up until one day i pop. nice scene eh? *feeling lotsa gas, oops i mean the sadness and anger etc, then finally, in one moment, my head explodes, with all the blood and whatever that's left of my head* gross-ness?

wheeeeeeeee... i'm looking forward to tomorrow!! not because it's G's lecture.. (i ALMOST wanted to pon man) ok, well at least agriculture aint all that bad.. but ya, the point is.. i'm going sentosa!! whoohoo! another day of non-homework... makes me feel guilty again... this time it's with CYF.. but i wonder if i'll end up thinking about the undone revision during all the fun.. i shall be such a spoiler. argh. i dun care la. shall try to forget whatever unhappiness and anger and disappointment and all those pieces of shit whom i'm actually related to.. haha.

oh yea. someone(s) has been added to my Top 10 People Who Piss Me Off list.. and that's the Samsung hp guy. he pisses me off to the core. i've waited for THREE freaking days and he still hasnt sent my hp to me! HE SUX!!! i'm going so mad.. if he doesnt send it SOON, i'm so gonna find the company's no. and complain!! arghhhhhhhh. that sucker... if i dont get it before this week í'm going to singtel shop and get it myself.. so if he calls i'll just tell him: Ohhh (nonchalantly), i thought you lost my order.. so i assumed the deal was off and i've gotten another hp. grrrrrrr... that loser. ok, so much for just a hp... LOL~

oh ya.. i almost forgot.. altho it's over 12mn... i jus wanna wish all daaaddies in de world....
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

yea.. even tho my dad's pissed at me and prob doesnt love me anymore since i'm de bitch of de family, spending all his $$$...
and yea.. he didnt even respond to de self-created Happy Father's Day msg i sent him. did u jus hear smthg lik a heart breaking? it's mine.
i love my dad, but tell me, does he hate me?


ON A SCALE OF 1 TO 10, RATE HOW WELL UR FAMILY LIFE IS NOW, WITH 1 AS THE WORST. MINE IS 1/10.
everyone spends $! spending on ur own children is (in chi) "tian jing di yi" wad? it's not lik i'm unreasonable. but dey keep emphasizing my wrongs and TOTALLY ignore de times i was a gd daughter. everything say "not guai". spend $ go cut hair also say not guai (excuse me, YOU were de one who asked ME to go, i didnt want to, even so it's not lik i spend $100 on my hair, it's only a freaking $10), then start complaining abt how LAST TIME when i was young i'd let u cut my hair and save alot of $. so dat's ur version of "guai"? being stingy wif $? F. u tink i'll dare to step outta de house if u cut my hair now?! dun be riduculous, de mushroom head is not in fashion now. unless u're a hairdresser. then u cont abt how my younger bro saves $ for transport since pri 4 cos he started taking de public bus when in my time i cud ride de sch bus.. F. i took public bus too in my final yr AND i walked to and fro sch for 4yrs in IJ. go slap urself.
everything's u did wrong here, u didnt help there. k, jus dig out all my faults and treat me lik shit. and no, u dun even feel sorry for hurting me. i alredi compromised to hav my allowances cut to PAY U BACK FOR DE DAMN HP. i can even starve to death if u want. i can also die if u say so, yea, right in front of u. jus bcuz i'm not 21 and not considered an adult in UR eyes doesnt mean i get abused by all ur insults. i'm a human being for G-d's sake. and jus bcuz u're pmsing/going thru menopause gives u de right to scream in my ear 1 sec and love me de other. i cant adapt to this kind of on-off so-called-affection u give ur daughter.

and dun ever, EVER, start treating me lik any of those F-ing shitty relatives. i will leave for gd, i SWEAR.